Apple Hill and Pumpkin picking!

Here are the picture from Apple Hill and Pumpkin picking. It's not all of them because I shot two rolls of film, but it is a few of my favorites.

Katie Laughing.

Dad and Katie found me!

There was this huge 9 month old puppy on Apple Hill, So we stopped to see it. Needless to say jackson desided that when we get a house we are getting a newfoundland puppy.

Katie had pigtails in all day. Can't you tell?

"Bye!"

She's in deep thought

"Dat!"

Awesome Apple!

View from Apple Hill.

It's a Quicky!

Quick update.


Everything is good, I just dropped jackson off at the airport for soldier of the year in salt lake city. He'll be back sunday afternoon.

Christine and I are having a girls night consisting of playing wii, staying up and watching most haunted LIVE! at the winchester mystery house (which we will be going down there hopefully sometime soon)

Jackson and I really want to go see that house. So does his mom and dad.

Well I'm off, Need to find something to do today until christine gets out of work.

Family

All I can say is read the comment on the last blog.


That's who real friends are and they stay with you forever.

And she's 100 percent right.

Oh! and the fun begins!

HAHAHAHAHAHA this is grand!

So!

I wondered how long it would be before someone started drama over this blog....lets see...less then a month. Great!

People assume things and it's Grand.

Just because people get pissed off about my feelings does it mean I'm gunna stop saying them?

NOPE!

Newsflash everyone: It's a blog, people post there feelings in it. If you offended by it send an e-mail, or even post a comment on the blog saying "Hey we need to talk about this."

Hahaha, I'm immature and my high school ways have rubbed off on Jackson!

Is someone admitting to guilt cause I didn't name any names in the blog?
I'm not joking we are sitting here laughing our asses off cause someone is making such a huge deal about it.

You know what I'm going to us names just so that everyone knows. It's Jessi. She's the one making the huge deal about it. This is what I think happened.

This morning Jackson logged on to his Facebook to find a post from her just bitching him out. We just laughed. Hell lets let the world know, since she wants the attention by posting it on facebook anyways.

Jessi Peterson (Portland, ME) wroteat 4:52pm yesterday
So i love finding things out from other people...especially when im involved in it. So when did i try to get you to cheat on sam with me? Cause as far as i remember the only time we were alone together i was keeping you company driving around waiting for sam while you bitched to me about how she ditched you to go to prom. So when was there time for me to do that? Sorry but 29 year old guys almost my age is not really my type. sorry. i actually feel bad for Sam, i wonder what else you lied to her about. You guys are screwed you think tyler and i are a disaster...we not dealing with a pregnancy, Whining, a new puppy, and a marriage...im not here to judge but i think we are a little more ready than you two. I just lost all respect for you Jackson! i thought you were more mature than sam but i guess not...her highschool ways have worn off on you! and that is sad! very sad

Jessi Peterson (Portland, ME) wroteat 4:58pm yesterday
So why dont you guys write to me about shit like this instead of being two faced and writing it on a blog...thats gay(my words) this all started with sam and i so you getting involved was not necessary, but thanks for your imput. God that Pisses me off...did you really think i wouldnt find out about you telling sam that? My friends brought it to my attention, and i just want you to know...its cute you would actually think i would do something like that to sam and tyler...but dont flatter yourself cause i wouldnt! Have a nice day!

I just checked and I didn't say any names in the blog. So she automatically assumed it was her. can we say someone is GUILTY??? No names were mentioned. I know better.

You know what I just realised? This isn't the first time that someone has told me that Jessi has tried or has messed around with one of my boyfriends while I was dating them. Ummm...Yeah. If she's so in love with her "younger hotter model" why have I been told twice that she's cheated on him (or tried to)? Two totally different occasions? And why would her friends read my blog anyways. Can you say stalking?

Here's what I think happened.

I think and I could be completely wrong but this is what I think happened.

Tyler has been reading my blog because Jackson and I did nothing to him, so why should he stop being our friends? And since Jessi probably bitches about us all the time he figured she probably would be pissed if she found out he's been talking to us (which he hasn't, but you get my point). So he read the blog and being Tyler, who by what I know doesn't put up with that shit; confronted her about it and of course she denied the entire thing, because she was cornered and doesn't want to get in trouble for cheating and she "loves him sooo much that she wouldn't do a thing like that" she doesn't want to lose him, cause she doesn't want to lose the attention that she is getting from planning the wedding and being engaged.

That's what i think happened. Again I could be completely wrong.

Points of Fact:
These are the things that Jessi said I assume she meant I said. I didn't say them.

"You guys are screwed you think tyler and i are a disaster..."
Again I didn't say any names in the blog, and I didn't state that the couple I was referring to was a disaster.

"Cause as far as i remember the only time we were alone together i was keeping you company driving around waiting for sam while you bitched to me about how she ditched you to go to prom."
I find this one funny all in it's own. Cause he bitched to me about it too. He let me know that he was upset that I was going to prom. Did he bitch when he took you out to dinner all dressed up while I was at prom? Oops was I not suppose say that? Oh yeah you told us not to tell Tyler cause he would be pissed.

"My friends brought it to my attention, and i just want you to know...its cute you would actually think i would do something like that to sam and tyler"
Since when did she start caring about me again? Again and why are her friends reading my blog in the first place. The only friends that I have that even know her remotely are Sophie and Diane and they don't even talk to her that often cause she blows them off all the time.

"So why dont you guys write to me about shit like this instead of being two faced and writing it on a blog"
Why are you bitching to Jackson about it? He didn't write the blog, I did. He wasn't even in the same room. And why would we try to contact you in the first place, you made it very clear you want nothing to do with us, and you wouldn't respond anyways...Well actually you might cause you probably aren't getting the attention from the wedding as much as you would have liked. so you deside to start all this drama so everyone will feel sorry for you.


That is the end of this blog, but not the end of this I can tell cause Jessi is only going to start more drama about it.

So we sit back and wait.


And i'm the immature one?

Let's Talk....

Good morning kids!

The word of the day today is.....::insert pathetic drumroll:: TRUST!

Say it with me kids.....Truuuusssst.


Sorry about the sarcasm. You know the more and more I realise it i can't really trust anyone.
I'm just gunna get hurt. I always do. I don't know why I'm thinking like this. Maybe because I just recently found out that my EX best friend tried to get MY boyfriend to cheat on me with her while he was visiting. AND she's ENGAGED!!!! Talk about being faithful. Ever since he told me that I haven't been able to get it out of my head, and realise why they didn't hang out after that. It seems to me that he is TRULY the only person that I can REALLY trust right now. I know it's not true and there are other people, but that's how I feel right now and I've really tried to just forget about it, but then it just makes me think. I'm and certainly not turning myself into the victim. It's just how I feel right now. I mean I would have fucking died for that girl. Sorry about the language but that seems to be the only word that could describe how I feel right now. And I feel that everyone needs to know how I feel. I am not lying when I say I would have died for her, I would have; but it seems that she wouldn't have done the same for me.
I don't think I wouldn't be so depressed about it if I could find another friend like. I'm not gunna lie, she may have moved on and yes she may have tons of other friends but what about me? I have absolutely no friends out here. No one that I can hang out with on a daily basis and not get sick of them. Yes I've gained and lost friends, but I've never been so devastated about losing one. Mostly because I find out that she didn't care the same about me. I never had sisters growing up, I never had brothers. I've been a complete softy my entire life and let people run all over me. And I get hurt from it.

Why do I let myself become so attached to people; only to get hurt in the end. Maybe it's the hormones talking, but I really hurt about this. Am I wrong? And I sit here in front of the computer pouring my heart into this and the tears are burning my face. Why would I care so much, she's the one that severed the cord, she's the one that didn't want to be friends anymore, and she's clearly not hurt about it; So why am I so upset about it. Why does it seem that no body else in this world can be as good of a friend she was when we were friends. And that is even if we were ever really "Friends" I considered her my sister, what did she think of me?

These are questions that I know will never be answered and I know I must just move on, but how can I?


but i am the best guy in the world so go fuck yourself other guys
^Jackson's note to the world.

Great Videos!!

Here are some great videos that I love to watch! I mostly love the songs...lol

"The Rock" by Amy-Jayne McCabe
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZZEb5Ohry1Q

"Come Home Soon" By SHeDAISY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i0Vvdv4UoXI

"Heaven" By D.J Sammy *!*!*!*!*MUST SEE*!*!*!*!*!*
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lTbVyELH3nY


Those are the three videos that were e-mailed to me and I find them incredible. Just wanted to share them with you all.

Drill Weekends Suck

I offically hate drill weekends.



I hate being home alone, it really sucks and I didn't relise how much I hated being alone until he couldn't come home from drill last night and I didn't get to talk to him on the phone.

Out Crack Ass dog bella was sick all day yesterday and is ill today, she's very mopey and doesn't want to eat, and she throws up the water she keeps drinking. I dont know.

Jackson doesn't have any reception where he is so I dont get to talk to him until sunday night. He did find one spot where he has some reception, but we dont get to talk that often.

I'm still an emotional wreck, I'll randomly start crying. I think the thing that is hurting me the most is that I dont have any friends out here. Non like the ones i had in maine. So I'm going back to work. I'm going to find a job so that I can make some friends, just a part time job for now while I look into taking some college classes maybe (that might have to wait until after the hatching) So I think I'll just go find a job at the mall, where I can work all day until about 5 and be home to visit jackson. Not only will it help with pay bills but we can also have extra money during christmas and have some money so that we can actually do things that we want to do. Or maybe just put it all away to buy a house next year. If for some odd reason we dont go active duty. Which is also in the near future.

That's one of the things I look forward to the most. Active Duty.
along with The Baby, the wedding, and oddly enough working.
I would like to spend time with jackson though. Some alone time, just us, no work, no outside world. We haven't really been paying attention to each other as much as we should with all our other worries. But i feel that when we go active duty, everything will be alot better. I'll be able to make friends, ones that can understand my feelings about everything (i.e. deployment, drill, ect.) although I believe if we go active duty we wont have drill any more. but oh well. What do I know, I had to drop my contract, but I believe everything happens for a reason. And that is how that goes.